This month will be month four of trying to conceive. This month I have promised myself that as the days come closer to the possibility of a period I will not start The Dance.
I have developed these dance moves over the last 3 months and it goes like this:
Step One: Seven days before my possible period (mPP), start thinking ” Hmmm. I wonder if I’m pregnant?”
Step Two: Five days before mPP, analyze every stomach whim. “Could this be the start of morning sickness? Maybe? Why would I have morning sickness at like day 10 ? Oh, maybe that was dinner from last night? What did I eat? Sushi. SUSHI?! OH GOD! I ate raw fish and my baby will have mercury poison”
Step Three: Two days before mPP, ” Hmmm. Is there really two more days until I start my period find out if I’m preggers? Maybe I wrote the wrong day down last month? Maybe I should take one of those early pregnancy test? The commercials say 5 days before a missed period. I’m only 2!
This is where the dance splits . I have two options:
1) The Waltz – keep your cool and have a little patience…surely I can wait 24-36 more hours.
2) Freestyle – Lose my mind. Go to my Walgreens across the street. Purchase a 2 pack of early pregnancy tests. Try to look like a respectable woman at check out and not the nervous teenager I feel. I CAN’T WAIT! I NEED TO KNOW NOW!
Step Four: Day of mPP, analyze my panties every time I go to the bathroom….which will be about twenty times….before noon.
This is quite exhausting. Not nearly as beneficial as regular dancing either.
Today I WOULD be between steps two and three, but I am feeling rather relaxed.
I know that God has seen my babies and His perfect timing will always be accurate.
Belly Question: What in your life causes you to do “The Dance”?